SHIRLEY MOY...

Serious look from the outside, little cheeky deep inside.
Hommie type of a person, she's one friend I can lean on.
In the course of my stay here in Penang,
Rich moments together are treasured with a bang!
Little she knows...I value her so much.
Emblem of true love and friendship that is,
Yielded forever in the inner core of my heart.

Moving on for greater heights, she has my full support....
On the shadow of HIS wings, she will rise up and be anchored.
Yet while is that so, she'll be missed A LOT.

Shirley my dear....it has started to sink in already. Sigh, I'm not sure how to react when the time comes that you will finally be in SG. Anyhow, it's for your own good and growth. Promise to pray for me ALL the time as you know if not all, MOST of what's inside me. Thank you so much for being such a "lotsa" to me.... Thanks for listening to the things I am NOT speaking... Know that I'll be missing you every now and then! Love you sis! HUGZ!

what's up, dad?

She's more than thankful for the blessings she has been receiving from Him especially caring friends (not to mention the "indirect" care others giving her..lol..). There was one friend of hers who was thoughtful enough to really wish her that someday she'll have the guy who will really take care of her - she thought, is she really difficult to handle? hahaha. What a compliment that he even blurted, "if only I'm not married" and yes this guy is married.. she bursted in laughter...

Most of her friends even telling her, "you deserve someone better". She will just normally shake her head, "everyone deserves better" she thought.

One time, she asked a friend.. why does she deserves someone better? The answer was, "Yes, you deserve someone better because you have so much love to give that it should be appreciated"... Well, she just kept quiet.

She thought that if her family and good friends can really care that enough for her, how much more her daddy up there? He should be up to something really really awesome :)

It was dawn time, she smiled and cuddled, grasping the cool breeze of the air clinging to that hope she has, looking forward to that very moment. Standing in that triangular shape of an area during one of the "stop over" on the way to an island (that was about 2-3am), she looked up and searched for the brightest star shining and whispered... "what's up, dad?"

:)


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Level of commitment? (Sakae-Sushi excerpts)

Okay, so I've been wanting to blog about the above for quite some time already (as usual) ...but just as what I've always been saying, no mood or rather no triggering factor! Finally, I've experienced something recently that made me sit down and write on this one! I guess I should not let the "triggerred-me-to-write" mood pass by, else this will just vanish and end up to nothing! You're asking what was the factor or rather I should say "what were the factors"? Oh well, first it was having such opportunity to have lunch in Sakae-Sushi (in KLCC) with the person who gave the statement I have well taken note about the above (long time ago already)... and guess what? In a Sakae-sushi resto as well, here in Penang! :P The other one would be the liners I've managed to highlight using my marker in the book I'm currently reading (and hopefully ill finish soon!) entitled "Joyfully Single" by Harold Sala, while waiting in Starbucks near Aquaria and having cupssss of coffee. lol.

"The level of commitment of one is not as much with the other that's why majority end up in break-ups or end up being single instead, also some are afraid of commitments so..." - I believe this was roughly the statement a good friend blurted out during that "dinner" with another friend in Sakae-Sushie in Queensbay. Please pardon me as this has happened a looong time ago already and as far as my memory is concerned that's the statement :P I can still clearly recall how I nodded agreeing to what he has said, which practically makes sense right? Offline - I checked myself how committed I am to a certain thing especially in a relationship. Not that I'm lifting my own bench but I am committed :P I began recalling my "good ol' days" when I had a long distance relationship once. I was still studying that time and because I'm attached, I never dated other guys and even allowed some invitations by a guy to go out. There was even a time that one girlfriend of mine told me that I can actually do whatever I want to do, maybe play around and the likes...since my boyfriend is in the US. I just told her "no way girl, I'm not like you :P"

Now for the liners (or quotes or whatever! :P) I've highlighted in the mentioned book, check these stuffs out (disclaimer: might be long but it's worth reading!). These are the lines I liked in the book:

*..Accdg to dictionary, commitment is the act of giving or putting something in the trust of another. In the broader sense, it is the act of pledging or binding yourself to a certin course of action or to a person as the case may be."

*Commitment is the decision to go forward in a relationship, to hang in there when the going gets tough, to take one more step when you are convinced all strength is gone. Commitment is the decision to stand by someone no matter what the temperature of a relationship may be or the force of the wind that blows against it.

*Commitment is at the foundation of all human relationships.......To be a human is to long for commitment from others.

*Commitment goes far beyond relationships. (here's what I really like...) No cause, no endeavor, no goal can really be attained without commitment.

*(and this one is the best)... In giving something through commitment, however, you GAIN far more than you give up!.

Pretty heavy liners huh?! Do the above make sense to you because for me - yes they do. Sounds scary?! Be afraid NOT! :) Especially reading the last liner again - looks like it's saying there's an ROI when you commit yourself :)

I dug my "quotes" collection from my archives and found this: "A decision is made with the brain. A commitment is made with the heart. Therefore, a commitment is much deeper and more binding than a decision."

Well... you just need to do it by putting your heart in it :)

Oh btw, I enjoyed both dinner and lunch Sakae-Sushi events!

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somebody...

I want somebody to share
Share the rest of my life
Share my innermost thoughts
Know my intimate details
Someone who'll stand by my side
And give me support
And in return
He'll get my support
He will listen to me
When I want to speak
About the world we live in
And life in general
Though my views may be wrong
They may even be perverted
He'll hear me out
And won't easily be converted
To my way of thinking
In fact he'll often disagree
But at the end of it all
He will understand me

I want somebody who cares
For me passionately
With every thought and
With every breath
Someone who'll help me see things
In a different light
All the things I detest
I will almost like
I don't want to be tied
To anyone's strings
I'm carefully trying to steer clear of
Those things
But when I'm asleep
I want somebody
Who will put their arms around me
And kiss me tenderly
Though things like this
Make me sick
In a case like this
I'll get away with it

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the door next to me..

A while ago when I was taking my normal cup of coffee from the vendo machine in one of our pantries, I've glanced the heavy outpouring of the rain - it was so darked outside. Some known and unknown colleagues came in through that door, some are wet some are not. They managed to make it to the office inspite of that heavy rain - good one!

Checked some emails and a bit of reading when I turned my back to the door neaby my desk, I'm amazed to glance the sunshine this time. I said, that was quick! Can't help it, I went out and stood there beside the door...staring the beautiful scenery I can see. Sunshine has started to emerse from within the haze caused by the rain, magnificent mountains and trees, some cars parked nearby, some people walking. I sniffed the cool breeze of the wind and closed my eyes to digest the awesome sight I just gazed upon - how I wish I had a handy camera with me to snap that view! Nevermind, my eyes and heart managed to capture it so vividly!

Sunshine after a quick rain - deep inside I was reminded. These turmoil or crisis or whatever you wanna call it that are happening around, are just quick rains...the sun will rise again...sunshine will come...

The door next to me - gave me access to the reassurance of God's faithfulness and being in control :)

Look around us - God may be using simple, ordinary or typical things to remind us that HE IS GOOD ALL THE TIME! Smile and be grateful :)

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When I Met You....

I called home this morning, and to my surprise my niece answered the phone. After a short talk explaining to me why she's not in the school, she blurted out that she has a song to sing for me... here you go the lyrics - and I thought of Him! i feel like singing right now..la la la..~~~ check out the song in this link: <http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HexI3etJh7s>

When I Met You :)

There I was, an empty piece of a shell
Just mindin' my own world
Without even knowin'
What love and life were all about

Then you came
And brought me out of my shell
You gave the world to me
And before I knew
There I was so in love with you

Chorus:
You gave me a reason for my being
And I love what I'm feelin'
You gave me a meaning to my life
Yes, I've gone beyond existing
And it all began
When I met you

I love the touch of your hair
And when I look in your eyes
I just know, I know, I'm on to something good
And I'm sure, my love for you will endure
Your love light up my world and take all my cares
Away where they can't bother me

(Repeat Chorus)

Bridge:
You taught me how to love
You showed me how tomorrow and today
My love, is different from the yesterday
I knew, you taught me to love
And darlin' I will always cherish you
Today, tomorrow and forever...

And I'm sure, when evening comes around
I know we'll be making love
Like never before
My love, who could asked for more

(Repeat Chorus)
When I met you...
When I met you...

Love you so much JC! :)

Making Decisions.

"What's wrong with being number two?" - This is one of the many liners I like from the "Tuesdays with Morrie" movie we've watched (I've read the book too though), during the retreat last weekend. I paused upon hearing it, and thought that there's really nothing wrong with it unless it has got something to do with "morality" issue (message me if you want to deep dive on this).

Talk about being a person who always wanted to be the number one and be on top of everything especially during my schooling days - half-way of my college/uni days, I have come to realize that there's really nothing wrong with it. That's just the way it goes and it's a matter of what standpoint or paradigm you're seeing it.

The above title is basically the second key learning I managed to grasp during the said retreat.

Making Decisions.

While is that so, I'm not really sure why the urge of writing about it came first and I thought of kicking this blog off with "What's wrong with being number two?" statement LOL. Just a head's up on the first one though - Love, Life, and Death (soon to be blogged! lol)

Making a decision about a certain thing is indeed and really not easy especially if your desire is for the good of everybody (talk about being the decision maker of the family at a young age? lol). However, I'd say there's always the so-called "pros and cons" for every angle and very seldom that we'll fall into what they call it a "win-win" situation. And as such, that's what makes decision making quite a challenge and for some "scary" if I may say so. Ofcourse, we are responsible for our own "decision/s" (although by right, it's originally "we are responsible for our own action" lol) and more often than not, there are certain consequences to it.

I was trying to recall my "stenography" or "short hand" ability during the retreat to write down as much learnings I can write but surprisingly when I was reviewing my notes, this learning isn't in my notebook! I guess my mind and heart managed to capture it vividly and remained deep within.

Pastor Victor slightly talked about decision making that night and I like it the way he has stated things related to it - I described it as "spiritually realistic!" Short and direct but impactful. He said not to be afraid of making decisions most especially if your relationship with God is healthy. Yeah, we may have the tendency to make mistakes in deciding but if your relationship with God is that good... for sure God is there to help us and keep us from being drowned if ever the decision wasn't the right one - made me realize to be proactively conscious and cautious how's my relationship and communing with Him! I then began to recall every decision I made in which I experience the so-called "failure" and then assessed how was my relationship with God then hehehe... There were a few that really hoaned me and made me stronger and if I may say better... and there were some as well that really broke me to the "nth" times. Some of those, my relationship with God was kinda "so-so" only. Somehow, it figures with some of my past experiences..lol..

Well, Pastor Victor used a very "typical" example. What else? Choosing "the one" when it comes to marriage (somehow it was a bit subjective for guys though..lol). I was shaking my head and smiled..lol... indeed, this is one of the "all-time favourites" as an example. While he highlighted the importance of having a healthy relationship with God, he also reiterated that "never ever make a decision unless you hear from God clearly". He emphasized the act of "waiting" upon what God is saying. But, the good and realistic side of what he said in that specific example is that.... just in case you really think that you are bound of time and "biologically" you can't wait that long to hear from God, he said "choose the girl who can help you grow with God." Somehow, I can agree to that but felt a bit sad 'coz it was subjective for guys. But hey! I realized it can be applied as well for women! :P What do you think?

So much for that.

Anyhow, yeah making decisions isn't easy. I remember once... I shared to some friends that I want my "man" to make all the decisions and that I can only give suggestions but the final decision will coming from "him" and all I'd do is to support that.... I'd say probably not really this time. I guess each one of us should know the importance of making decisions and decide on our own. Somehow for married couples, I'd say both parties should agree at "a" common decision since the two has become one already.

Anyways, whatever decision each one of us need to make - be assured that God will always be in control and will help us most importantly if we are anchoring unto Him constantly.

Take care now.

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