Fear not, Be glad.....

A lot of good and happy things are going on. One of my housemates has gone to SG for a new job and the other one will relocate to Sydney soon. Another good friend was recently attached and I'd say much inlove... How nice, I'm really glad for what's happening in their respective lives.

All those things I would say are good for all of my friends. I would say I'm happy for them but oh well, when human nature kicks in, and when my own thoughts return to thinking about myself, there's this substance of sadness and fear. That selfish question "what about me?" or "how about me?" kicks in. Then that gloomy clouds hover within my heart and my  mind. Deep inside, I am crying out loud unto God. Seems like the impression to me is that He's not listening to my cries at all. But then, there were times, I am being reminded of the past things happened in my life. Now, this seems God as well, reminding me of awesome great things He has done when I was at the edge of my agony way back 7 years ago. So, I kept quiet. I tried my best to be very still reminding myself over and over again to be still before the Lord and know that He is God.

Yeah, I must admit, a lot of things yet to happen, that somehow really made me scared and be worried implicitly. Things that involves the present and the future for my family and myself.

However, I don't know why after today, I suddenly felt like I am not that scared of things yet to happen any more. It's like there's this very very still small voice telling me:

Fear not, Be glad..... I am with You.